All he did was stare at his phone. His attention was only on his phone because he was anxiously waiting for her reply.. No matter how many times I tried to get his attention he would only come back for a split second and then wander off. 

Such a waste of my time if I’m hanging out with someone and he’s not even paying attention. Hurts more coming from him. 

“He was half white and half Japanese. Idk how I knew that, but I just did.”

What a huge coincedence.. I can’t even.

“You’re the only one that knows. No one else knows about her.”

In a way, I feel special that I’m the only one you trusted. I mean something to you at least, I think. But today, all you did was think about her when we were together. It was torture. I wanted to be with you, but your mind wasn’t there and it was out of reach for me.

I wonder if someone I know thinks about me occasionally and wonders how I’m doing. Even for a split second. I do that with a lot, especially with my old friends. But I feel like sometimes no one gives a damn about me and no one even cares. We’re all selfish I guess. Worrying about ourselves is our main concern.

I really like it when you give me your full attention.. It rarely happens which is why I get so giddy and happy whenever your eyes are only looking at me. This is what you do to me.. It scares me that you have this kind of an effect on me. Too bad you’ll never know this. 

If I don’t care what happens to me, you shouldn’t either. 

I’m sorry I disappoint you. I don’t know what it is about me, but I can never make someone proud of me. Everyone knows what I’m not capable of and when I try to prove people wrong, it never comes out right.. I can never do anything right.